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When your mind is so full of creativity and you just have to find your way or someone, not only yourself who believes in you …

I am sure all of us had some moments when we questioned ourselves about the next step to make in order to feel more gratified. Some times it is not even that but more deeply to actually wonder about the reason why we should even care about doing more. 

In the past I believed that as long as I had money to pay bills, buy expensive clothes and do something fun, I was ok. I remember that once a person read my handwriting and she pointed out the fact that I had a lot of potential and that I should just venture mysel more.

Over 8 years ago I changed continent and of course I had to deal with all the bureaucratic system and to find a new way of supporting myself in the new environment. I found something that is way more exciting than what I used to do. 

No matter that, I still question myself and I have been working on my inner, spiritual essence. In the last two years I have progressed deeply, but there is always a sort of dissatisfaction that pushes me to do more, makes me complain about myself, and try something new. However, with the excitement comes also the fear but most of all the big question? What the heck am I doing this when all I want is maybe just to be naked at the beach? 

Somebody says that as long we have fun doing what we are doing, we are already on the right path. Day by day we get caught in a circle of interrogative sentences that nobody can answer but us. However, those questions will only find an answer when their time comes. 

Do things not for the outcome but for the pleasure. Am I writing this for me, for you or for whatsoever? I guess I’ll find out one day. 

L’abito non fa il monaco

Don’t you ever feel that people judge you just because of what you wear? It goes back to the beginning of all human race: the desire, the need and whatsoever pushes people to wear this or that and moreover to judge others because of that. Three main aspects come to mind.

First of all, it isn’t weird that just because you are dressed like a hipster/homeless person, the security guards follow you like some good stalkers checking if you are actually going to pay for the groceries that you put in your bag? What about if I were actually carrying that Chanel bag?

Secondly, people dress in some special attires and then act like teachers, lawyers, priests, monks, psychics or any other professions that may come into your head. What if all people were blindfolded and just listen to whoever was teaching, guiding, defending… What would the outcome be? Would the voice and the thoughts coming out of their mouth be as effective as they can be when these people are actually visible? And in addition, aren’t people just a bunch of believers that are just fooled by others, either because of their  clothes or what they pretend to be?

Thirdly, clothes are like attitudes and sometimes they do not help us to be who we really are. Certainly, this is not always true and more or less our attires may instead help us to gain confidence and feel more at our ease. 

Notwithstanding we should not forget that what matters at the end is to be true to yourself because that is the ultimate person you are going to rely on. Either you are dressed for a défilé, an interview, a pool party, or completely naked like we say in Italian: “come mamma t’ha fatto.”